exams are over. school is over. routine is over. childhood is over.

now is the beginning.

i've been so focused on everything that is ending in these past few weeks that i've completely disregarded everything that is about to start. yesterday was my first day of the holidays that were thirteen years in the making. though they're not really holidays; they're a bridge between the known and the unknown. comfort and the great expanse. they're blank memories and experiences waiting to be filled. they're going to be the best three months of eighteen years.

as an ambitious procrastinator, my motto is 'if you don't have expectations, you can't be disappointed'. so maybe i'm setting myself up for failure. but how can i fail having fun and writing and exploring and learning? hanging out with friends and laughing and watching and growing? how can i fail living?

because that's what these three months will be. and, yeah, in between there will be a few days of waking up at 2pm and hibernating in summer. but as long as i'm in a constant state of self-pleasure, i really don't care. is that selfish? i don't think so, because i'm hoping selflessness will show itself along the way.

last post i said i wanted to pause, but now i'm ready to press play. which brings me to the point of this: i want to capture these experiences as best as i can and share them with those who want to know that somewhere, out there, a girl is having a grand time. maybe you're just looking for some vicarious happiness, or maybe you'll be doing the same thing and our lives will run parallel through the immortal nature of summer. if so, here's some shameless self-promotion!

i'm really hoping that i can utilise my newfound spare time to create, whether it be in personal projects but more so on this blog. i initially made thinking since 98 during one of the most important times in my high school career as an outlet for procrastination and in itself it became another thing for me to procrastinate. however, i'm going to stop being a lazy piece of shit (famous last words, i know) so expect some exciting new content!

which reminds me to remind you about the 98 thinkers project that you can find out all about right here! i really want to make this become a thing and i'll be scouring the creative universe for 98ers to participate!

i would also love for you to check out my instagram @akhsunid (or, as you might have noticed, you can find on my sidebar because technology is amazing) and indulge me and my innate need for attention.

in conclusion, i'm excited for what's to come and i hope you are too!! xx